I have been braining damaged drugged and humiliated for years. So much so that I have just recently remembered how to properly go to the bathroom. So, the memories come back in moments, in fragments. What I remember is that several times I have had large sums of money in my possession. I also know that when the money is stolen (through threats, brain damaging and yes, a hostile and uncaring justice system). It seems inescapably I notice; a great big building project occurs. (Often right at the scene of the attack or near it. One would be a private lake would be built. Or a large number of houses would be built in the neighborhood I knew. That makes me wonder about things, supposedly for all the people, like Expo 67 and the Olympic Complex.
Even when I was on the most destitute category of welfare recipient and volunteering in the most dangerous neighborhoods, much to my dim surprise, large amounts of this very troubled neighborhood were developed. It again seems to be no coincidence that I was there.
This does not stop my welfare pension and my social status from remaining incredibly low. This is in my mind at the time. If the government, after originally asking for over $14,000, has settled now for $2000 why in the world should I believe that is all they would ask? Does this mean that will all I have to pay or will they have asked for the rest of the money in the future?
Not only that, I am soon to reach retirement age. And this brings me back to question. What has made the government give me such a low category for welfare recipients for such a long time.? Is my category of recipient stated “undesirable’ and for what reason?? Was it in my family situation? Am I receiving welfare for meeting as a psychiatric patient, as a homeless person, as a prostitute, or as an illegal alien Emotionally or intellectually incompetent? Why was this never dealt with in the incredibly sophisticated educational system (both inside and outside the school systems). And how I am going to be treated in the future. Like in the choice of my retirement home.
If when I have saved a small sum of money it is almost immediately confiscated, what does this mean to me when I reach retirement age? Am I forbidden to handle any money at all? as soon as I get the money it is completely taken away?
If the idea is that the welfare system will take care of my problems it has proven throughout a lifetime not to do this. Certainly, I have been never being informed how to live within the monetary system that I live in. I have had much education and none to get me off welfare. Much money has been spent and none to get me off welfare.
It seems they are not concerned about other things. never mind my choice of living. Never mind what I like. I frankly do not believe that are at all interested in things like having dental work so that I can eat. Or having a good quality pair of glasses so that I can continue my work with my eyes. As for small things like living in a place that is not abhorrent to me. I am looking very quietly at the kind of retirement home that I would go to. And it looks grim and awful.
I can’t go on a safe vacation. No way. I can’t save for a good computer system and camera. No way. can I earn money? I unfortunately think in that I am forbidden this. If I earn any money it will certainly be taken away.
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